3 years.

It’s been 3 years since my brother died. I still can’t talk about him without crying. I still can’t think about him without crying. I still can’t write about him without crying. I can’t remember the last thing I said to him. I hope it was I love you, but it could have been I’ll … More 3 years.


I’ve tried writing this post a dozen times but can never seem to find the right words to say. The morning your sibling dies, it changes you. It still seems like a dream.   I still have a few of the letters he would write me when he was in jail and I got them … More rainbows.

Christmas for her.

It’s that time of the year, CHRISTMAS TIME! I genuinely don’t like receiving presents though. I struggle with the money that it could have went to, a bill or to things for the boys or house. On the other hand I love buying presents, the money seems less important then. But if I was going … More Christmas for her.


Growing up I remember more Christmas presents under the tree than I could count. It was amazing and beautiful, but I want the boys to have more of an appreciation than I did so we keep the presents to more of a quality over quantity. We still have all four presents John got for his … More presents.

must haves!

I can’t believe Tennessee is already 8 months and John will be 3 in two months! Where on Earth did the time go? I thought I would share with you a few of our must haves to keep everyone sane! Graduates Puffs- any flavor! both boys love them for a snack and they are great … More must haves!

Freshly Picked

A little over two years ago I discovered all the mama makers on Instagram. There is so many amazing small businesses that you can find with the simple search of a hashtag, in particular #freshlypickedmoccs and #foreverystep! The first shop I found was Freshly Picked, a little shop with a few thousand followers that made … More Freshly Picked


This is our first time trick or treating as a family. Last year John made it two blocks before he was done but Terry was in recruiting school so this year is our first real Halloween together! John doesn’t attach to much but he really loves Rawr Rawrs, so obviously he had to be a … More Halloween


The backdoor of our apartment faces a field, we call it #lottfieldofdreams. It’s the first place John ever played in the snow, where we watch the tractors plow the crops, where we play hide and seek, it really is just a place full of imagination. We are doing a 365 project with John and a … More #lottfieldofdreams